Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Having a baby is harder than everyone thinks it to be. You have to prepare yourself for everyone else's reactions, not just your spouse's. My heart has broken a couple times at the reactions that I have received from others, some good, some bad. But I have come to realize that no matter what anyone says or does, this is my child and they cannot take her/him away from me.
Its been almost two weeks since I last posted and in those two weeks I have been torn down and built back up numerous times. If any of my friends from my childhood were to say how they thought I was taking it they would probably say one of two things. Either that I told everyone to go find a very tall cliff to jump from without any supports or that I curled into a ball and cried. Well I can say that I have done both. But there are changes being made not just to me physically but emotionally as well. No more staying quiet because that is what I should do. No more telling people off at the snap of a hand. I have come to realize that patience is indeed a virtue and that it is one that I have very little off. (I can imagine my family reading this and chuckling for they know it's true).
I can only grow from this experience. Whether I take it all in stride or become emotionally damaged by it all is only for me to decide. My advice to everyone out there is to remember that no matter who you are speaking to, if there are more than one persons in the situation then you affect them all. Watch what you say to one because it is likely to get to the other without you knowing it. Words hurt more than you know. You may not realize it but they do. And just because someone is all puffed up in the chest and standing like a brick wall doesn't mean that you aren't the chisel that would crack that wall.
I am so blessed to have a family that accepts me for who I am and understand that I want to do what I want to do. Nothing has gotten me through this more than they have. Love is the strongest thing on this earth. Maybe if we all opened our hearts a little more then the world would be a better place for our children. Some say love is magic, and I must agree with them. When you look into the eyes of someone you love there is a magic there that is like no other . You cannot change how you feel just because they have done some thing wrong. Your heart knows better than your brain who should be in your life. I just started listening to mine. I hope everyone else starts to listen too.
Its been almost two weeks since I last posted and in those two weeks I have been torn down and built back up numerous times. If any of my friends from my childhood were to say how they thought I was taking it they would probably say one of two things. Either that I told everyone to go find a very tall cliff to jump from without any supports or that I curled into a ball and cried. Well I can say that I have done both. But there are changes being made not just to me physically but emotionally as well. No more staying quiet because that is what I should do. No more telling people off at the snap of a hand. I have come to realize that patience is indeed a virtue and that it is one that I have very little off. (I can imagine my family reading this and chuckling for they know it's true).
I can only grow from this experience. Whether I take it all in stride or become emotionally damaged by it all is only for me to decide. My advice to everyone out there is to remember that no matter who you are speaking to, if there are more than one persons in the situation then you affect them all. Watch what you say to one because it is likely to get to the other without you knowing it. Words hurt more than you know. You may not realize it but they do. And just because someone is all puffed up in the chest and standing like a brick wall doesn't mean that you aren't the chisel that would crack that wall.
I am so blessed to have a family that accepts me for who I am and understand that I want to do what I want to do. Nothing has gotten me through this more than they have. Love is the strongest thing on this earth. Maybe if we all opened our hearts a little more then the world would be a better place for our children. Some say love is magic, and I must agree with them. When you look into the eyes of someone you love there is a magic there that is like no other . You cannot change how you feel just because they have done some thing wrong. Your heart knows better than your brain who should be in your life. I just started listening to mine. I hope everyone else starts to listen too.
Movement!
I can feel my baby move!! I just wish Max could feel it move. We find out what it is on June 26. I am so excited! I swear I can feel it move against my hand but Max can't. Its really upsetting because I want him to be able to feel it move. It feels like I am alone in this until he can feel it move. I know that that is stupid but that's how it feels. I have fallen absolutely in love with our baby and can not wait to find out if it is a baby girl or boy.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
So....for those of you that already know, this may be a repeat, but for those of my friends and family that haven't been enlightened, I'm expecting a beautiful bundle of joy in November.
Yes, I know. It's going to be hard, and it's going to take a lot of work, but I think that Max and I are more than capable of taking care of our baby once it arrives. No, I do not know what my bundle is yet, and just for you nosey people out there I'm hoping for a little girl (of course Max wants a boy).
We know that some of our friends and family will be upset with this news but we are keeping the baby and are going to do it together. No we are not rushing into getting married or anything but if that comes later then we will be happy with it. We need all the support and optimism we can get from everyone. So with that being said, if you cannot appreciate the fact that a brand new life is coming into this world then please just stay off my blog and forget I even existed, won't hurt my feelings none, I promise!
We have a lot of planning and scheming up head for us but we are both in this together and we will always do the best we can.
I am currently 9 weeks and 1 day as of this post. I had an ultrasound today at the doctors and I heard the heartbeat for a couple of seconds as they measured the heart rate, which was a speedy 179 bpm (for those of you that know the old tales of fast heart beats meaning girls, know that I am thrilled! And keeping my fingers crossed).
We will keep everyone posted on how things are going and what is ahead for us! Oh and we picked Winnie the Pooh as the theme so that it is gender neutral and we can do it for girl or boy!
Yes, I know. It's going to be hard, and it's going to take a lot of work, but I think that Max and I are more than capable of taking care of our baby once it arrives. No, I do not know what my bundle is yet, and just for you nosey people out there I'm hoping for a little girl (of course Max wants a boy).
We know that some of our friends and family will be upset with this news but we are keeping the baby and are going to do it together. No we are not rushing into getting married or anything but if that comes later then we will be happy with it. We need all the support and optimism we can get from everyone. So with that being said, if you cannot appreciate the fact that a brand new life is coming into this world then please just stay off my blog and forget I even existed, won't hurt my feelings none, I promise!
We have a lot of planning and scheming up head for us but we are both in this together and we will always do the best we can.
We will keep everyone posted on how things are going and what is ahead for us! Oh and we picked Winnie the Pooh as the theme so that it is gender neutral and we can do it for girl or boy!
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